Battle Blues

Anyone who had at least been to the army or trained to be one before will tell you what its like to prepare for a war practice... exciting? fact is its utterly boring, sickening and 1/2 of the soldiers are finding ways to get sick or get themselves injured deliberately to fall out from mission. Images of despair starts spurning out of nowhere. Worries and paranoia about everyone and everything under the sky.

Well, my friends, the last few days to me was like war prep blues. Hid in my room thinking of all the weridness and nonsensical issues. Questioning everyone and everything, and worst of all I dont even know why I'm doing so. It was finally today when I went for my Law lecture that I realised my problem lies with stress and pressure of exam approaching. To my relieve, today's revision lecture actually cleared alot of my doubts and answered my question. There has to be a genuine problem inside me and its exam stress! haha!

Question 1: Is relationship part of the stress?
Answer: It is when i feel vulnerable without support and experience depression when the thought of there's no longer a girl who treats you as her's. Lost sense of belonging.

Question 2: Will another girl solve question 1?
Answer: I dont wanna jump into any kind of relationships now. Impratical and childish to even assume that understanding can come after love.

Question3: Either than girl what else is in my mind?
Answer: Studies, results, luck, career, $$! n family of course.

Question 4: What happens now?
Answer: I've finally recovered.. at least mostly, wont bother crying over my last r/s anymore. Exams appraoching! battle boots on, laces tied, SOP checked! preparing for battle plan Alpha and Beta ( Hope I dont have to resolt to Cheating...oops I meant Charlie)

Last Question: What happens after exams?
Answer: Go Italy, Go drinking, No smoke, No girls, 1 lovely mole and a couple of animals!

FALL IN! Move OUT 15 days time, Tuesday! 0800 hrs! Brace yourselves! Gogogo!